A Short Blog Is Better Than No Blog At All

I had all of these ideas for how I wanted my life to change and even though I’m not actually starting my project (I love a project) until late October there were (are) things that I wanted to implement early so that I’d all ready be somewhat improved by the time I began really trying all these new things out!

I still haven’t meditated.

I decided to write for thirty minutes every day even if it was rubbish. Especially if it was rubbish. Because that is how you improve. I envy my younger self her total confidence (not that I was ever confident in the conventional sense but I believed in myself. I thought I could write, at the very least).

I wish that I was the sort of person who could switch off entirely and just relax without thinking. Does that sort of person exist or does it take work to get to that sort of level of bliss.

Anyway, I was prepared to have things go from good to great…and then things got bad and worse. Which is to say I wasn’t dealing very well with life and work and all of that stuff. The fact that I may be made redundant soon terrifies me.

But going to Edinburgh made everything feel a lot better. And putting space between myself and my job is helpful.

I’m back from the Fringe but I’m not back to work until after the bank holiday. And I’ve reread Mike Gayle’s The To Do List in which he does over 1200 things in a year.

I’m currently working on my list of 100 dreams which I read about here: http://lauravanderkam.com/2010/10/100110-my-list-of-100-dreams/

I know it sounds a bit self-centered but as Gretchen Rubin always says being happy makes others happy and other people being happy can make you happy. So I shall aim to be happy. Happier.

We saw a Tim Fitzhigham show in Edinburgh called Challenger. I’ve always loved Dave Gorman’s quests and even (truly I love it) Eat Pray Love. And doing my film project made me happy. So, onwards. One step at a time.